Happy brain day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(hihihihih)

I'm sitting at this computer wondering what to say and I wish I could just type out "This sickness is taking a toll on me" and actually mean it, but I can't. Honestly speaking, I think the only thing that's getting to me is not being able to churn out a mere thousand and five hundred words for my wretched essay. It is of course, very simple, and takes little to really produce an essay out of it. I don't know what's wrong with me. I just can't seem to get my head around my studies anymore. I am in fact,i surt internet more than I am spending my time on academic study, be it individual and own study at home or hours being spent at u classes and what not. I had this conversation today and it's shocking how short a time I spend at class then at home (which is hardly anything REALLY) compared to the amount of hours I work. I don't work heaps, only enough for me to maintain my study and enjoy it and to be able to stay in conditions, but if one was to actually think about it, I spend NOTHING on study. It's about 2 and a half to 2, I'd say. That's about 20 hours of work a week, and only 8 at uni, considering I turn up for ALL my classes (which I don't, not at this stage no). That is absolutely shocking eh. I must admit, I am enjoying playing game so much more than studying and learning about life and the different movements in performance art and gender performance and what have you. Honestly.. seriously.. really.. How on earth are these things gonna help me in any way in future? Like how learning about compound interest and the planets when I was still back in school helped me now? Bollocks! Everything is absolute bollocks because without experience, you're worth nothing. And knowledge can only get you that far.. Most importantly though of course is that speaking from personal experience, MY BRAIN can only get me that far in containing knowledge.So really. REALLY.